Thursday, January 26, 2012

Aydanator Update!


There have been many "woosah" moments today. Aydan finally saw his physical therapist this morning and it really seemed like one thing after another. Here's the break down:

-Aydan's hips are not symmetrical.
-One leg is shorter than the other.
-He has an issue with pronating his right feet.
-He turns his feet outward more than what is considered "normal" for a toddler.
-He drags his right foot.
-Because of the shorter leg, it causes him to kind of bring his leg around in a circular motion to walk.

But he doesn't have cancer or some other life-threatening disease, these things are treatable and we will get past this. That is basically what I have had to tell myself all day and I'm pretty ashamed that I even had to do that. I know this isn't a death sentence, so why am I such a wreck?! My baby boy is perfect in every single way and he was given these hurdles because he was strong enough to handle them and get over them. He is so strong and I really do admire him, he's overcome a lot to meet his milestones and even the fact that he is finally walking is amazing. I just don't know why I have been such a mess all day, I haven't answered the phone and I haven't really wanted to talk to anyone (except Bryan) about it. I don't want to hear anyone's two cents on the therapist's observations or have someone tell me they noticed that his walking didn't seem "normal." I think my emotions are already on high just from all this PCS stuff and beginning to say goodbye to all of our friends in Savannah. In my heart, I know that a few years from now this will all just be a mountain in the distance and we will be proud to say that Aydan jumped over his hurdles with a beautiful smile on his face!

I am addicted to this version of John Lennon's "Beautiful Boy" by Ben Harper. Aydan is the most beautiful little person I have ever met and I am so honored to be his momma. I love you, little bug. 

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Sweet Baby Tripp and His Amazing Mommy

I'm sure a lot of y'all have heard about Baby Tripp recently. I had tears in my eyes when I first read his story and the thought of how courageous his mommy is. I have always tried to remind myself of how lucky we are to have such a healthy child while also telling myself that even if he develops setbacks, it doesn't change the amount of love we have for him. Courtney is the perfect example of this.

Courtney is an amazing inspiration to all mommas and I am truly touched by Baby Tripp's story. While I know that Tripp is no longer in pain and enjoying heaven, I know that his momma is in pain in his absence. I only hope she realizes that her courage and strength is just as admirable and inspiring as Tripp's.

Heaven now shines a little brighter.


Monday, January 23, 2012

Moving. Destination: Crazyville!

Moving is serious business! I had it in my head that it would be a walk in the park moving through the military. Laughable, right? There's still so much to do and so many hard goodbyes ahead of us. Remember how I recently mentioned I only get emotional when it comes to my little one? Well, I lie. Kind of. I am so sad to leave our "family" we have grown to love here in Savannah. We have brought so many amazing people into our lives and of course, into Aydan's life. This is where our first home is and I will always cherish that. I will have a heavy heart and leaky eyes come next Tuesday.

Savannah started out as a place I had no desire to live and turned out to be the home and birthplace of our first child, the home of my beloved job and the home of our wonderful friends and Army family. Thank you for the memories, Savannah! You will always hold a special place in our hearts.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Well, hello there!

How am I ever going to get a decent amount of followers when I constantly fall of the blogging bandwagon?!

I have been rather busy lately, busy watching my little love grow up right before my eyes, that is. My goodness, I can't even type this without crying. I don't get emotional about much but when it comes to my child, I am a ball of mush. We have walking, friends! Yes, my little 7 pound, 11 ounce baby has grown into a 27 pounds, 32.5 inches little boy. A little over a week ago he just got up and started taking 8-10 steps at a time, and yep, his momma cried. Actually, she bawled. We waited so long for those moments and had so many neigh-sayers telling us that something was wrong with him, that those first steps were really rather big strides. I could not be more proud. Call me crazy, but I swear his vocabulary even seems to be growing like wildfire since those first steps. Growing before our eyes, I tell you!

Unfortunately, there has been a very minor setback with this huge milestone. Aydan was diagnosed with Torticollois and Plagieocephally at two-months-old, we have been kicking it's butt with some hardcore physical therapy for over a year now and from what we can tell the Torticollis is causing some problems with his walking. He turns his feet a little more than he should and he also drags his right foot. We had an appointment with his therapist to see about getting him some orthotics last week, but unfortunately she called in sick. I am anxious to get this appointment over with, especially since we are moving at the end of this month but mostly because if there is an issue that needs to be fixed, I want it fixed. I'm sure my momma friends know what I mean. I will definitely keep y'all updated, in the meantime, any prayers are appreciated. We are so lucky that this "mountain" is the only mountain we are faced with, I know there are so many other children and their parents battling mountains much bigger than ours.

Bryan is still at AIT kicking some serious tail, I couldn't be more proud of him. This reclass is nowhere near what we had in mind, but I think we are both adjusting and making the best of it. Not to mention, our house rented out which is honestly a huge weight off of our shoulders. Aydan and I will be staying with family in Florida, soaking up the Florida sun until Bryan graduates AIT.

Needless to say, I do have a big move ahead of me but I have every intention of staying on the bandwagon, I promise!

Until next time, here are some of my favorite pictures as of recent:


We recently visited the Georgia Aquarium and Aydan was rather fascinated by some pretty ugly fish!


Aydan has been soaking up time with his Daddy Monkey while Daddy is away.


Since I was recently referred to as a car seat Nazi, I will proudly say that this handsome fella is 15 months and still rear-facing.

Friday, January 6, 2012


Bryan came home for a little over a week at Christmas and we had a great time that of course went way too quickly. Aydan was in love with the wrapping paper that Santa left him! ;) I am so happy we had Bryan here to share in the holidays. Aydan was so young last Christmas that we kind of felt like it was his first Christmas all over again.

However, Bryan has since gone back to Fort Meade to finish up AIT and we have also listed our home for rent. I feel like my world is crumbling down around me. I hate that my family is separated all because Bryan was forced to reclass and I hate how much pressure is on him. I'm so overwhelmed with moving, probably even sooner than we expected and leaving everything we've grown to love in Savannah. We have security here and it is all starting to dwindle away piece by piece. I feel so inferior, like there is so much that needs to be done but I don't have any desire to do it, because I have no desire to go where we are going and I have no desire to leave my baby's first home. I'm so bitter and weak, which is so not me.

I know we will overcome it and I know that at the end of the day it is all so petty. I just wish I could shake these feelings and get my family back together like now.